This week I had one of those moments that just plain threw me. Hannah and I were driving on Rt 3 Westbound in Clifton, NJ. It was actually a beautiful afternoon between storms. She was so happy as it was her last visit to her orthodontist. We were chatting away ... all of a sudden we were hit with one of those snow/icepacks off the roof of a big truck. I had no idea it was coming and BAM! Hit my car so hard I thought the roof was dented as the side mirror had collapsed in and my giant rear view mirror had come loose. My head actually felt like it was hit by something and that was that. It was over. He drove on and I slowed down in shock that it happened. Felt like there was definitely an angel protecting our Explorer.
It hit me later how sometimes things happen with no warning. Sort of like my brain tumor.
I'm not sure if I have any major words of wisdom now that it has been 4 years since my life changed. I really feel blessed to still be here, yet I often wish I could go back to my simple life before surgery. I had no fears and didn't worry about anything. Life was good.
And then my inner therapist is like... what are you thinking?? Are you kidding? You idiot ... stop the "poor me" attitude! Do you know how lucky you are? You are here! No, you are not only here, you are better off now than before! And then I'm over the pity party and move on.
So what is my message? I'm not pushing the greens or chia seeds today. I'm simply thinking about how lucky I am. How blessed I am to have always had the support from my incredible family and loyal friends. I may get tired easier than before on some days, and going into loud places freak me out some days, and fluorescent lighting makes me dizzy, wish my left eye worked, wish I didn't bump into people in stores, oh yeah and I hate the dent in my head ... but I love the fact that this is my story. I am so blessed. I have learned to appreciate the now!
My mission is for everyone to feel good about themselves and enjoy what they have. Yeah, we all wish we had a better this or a better that ... but once you stop and just take gratitude for where you are and what you are doing, you will attract more of the good stuff to you.
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| The beginning ... |
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| Let the healing begin ... |
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| My girl came to visit after I finally left ICU ... |
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| Just hanging out waiting for my cyberknife session to zap the leftover tumor... |
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| Lizard head!! The cyberknife mask was a bit tight! |
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| My man with me at my post radiation check up! All is well! |
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Much Love and Gratitude to All,
Krista
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