Owww!

Well, not really owwww, I mean "ow!" I have been out of my regular routine of being active the last three weeks and I jumped in the last 36 hours. My body is screaming at me at the moment and I am shocked at how I feel!

I didn't run a triathlon like many of my friends did this weekend ... wanted to but wasn't quite ready to take that on yet ... still not sure of my biking skills with the vision thing ... and I didn't run a marathon like my friends who are training! I only did a great walk this morning with my poor dog who has been ignored the last month or so, took a yoga class and swam some laps. So to be this sore is not the norm for me. Why did I lose focus with my exercise? Well, I found reasons that put other things first! You know... the family, the responsibilities that come with being a parent, "summer mode," sleeping late, the heat, etc! I have to say, I finally feel fantastic even though I am so hurting today.

One of the books I'm reading hit this nail on the head.
"When we say "yes" when we mean "no," and "no" when we mean "yes," we are living for the acknowledgment and approval of others. Accordingly when we take our first step toward implementing any self-nurturing activity (could be activity, exercise, rest, meditation, etc), we may encounter a wall of resistance. Though the wall is invisible, it may seem impenetrable. However it isn't." - Michael Brown

I think this can be applied to so many parts of our lives! Listen to what your body needs today! Sometimes you need an inspiration like a friend to motivate you to do something for yourself ... sometimes you feel that wall of resistance and actually feel comfortable with it. You don't want to go take a walk, or do something you feel like you should be doing. Acknowledge that and try to move through it. What emotions have you been avoiding at the expense of being busy or trying to please others?

The best way out is through!! More on that another time ;)
Krista

August Already?!!

I could not believe it when I turned my phone on this morning it said August 1st! How did it get this late in the summer? Granted there is a full month left but I guess I have flashbacks to when I was a kid or a teacher and it meant the times of freedom and fun were winding down! Well this summer has been way too quick for most of us! I feel like the kids just got out of school and now we are back to school shopping! Yikes!

I know what is coming in September...schedules to the highest degree! Yep, so once I accepted that things are going to pick up in a big way ... not that summer swim team is not keeping us busy...I really have tried to just live each day to the fullest! Ok, if it means to pass out with a nap that is even better!! I hope you are all enjoying the season and all that comes with it ...

I have learned so much in the last 6 months. I have mixed emotions on this 6 month anniversary. On one hand I am wondering why my vision didn't return. I mean 6 months is pretty much the medical cut off for things like vision to return...why isn't it back? I have been working hard on trying to eat all the right foods, take the right supplements, and many other things I don't want to get into right now. But that is the way it is right now. I accept that and have tried to move forward with everything that it has taught me. I have cried so many tears (yes that eye still makes tears) and really don't understand how I managed to have a brain tumor. I still walk into walls, car doors, people (especially little kids who are short!) and don't know when someone is standing on my left hand side. So.... life goes on. Yes!! That's it. Life did go on and I am grateful beyond words that I can say that!

Gratitude....
May you all find it on your best days and those days that are horrible!

Here is a thank you to those people who have given me what I needed!!
http://www.appreciationmovie.com/

Lots of love,
Krista